Anti Fear List Thursday

• Pizza Cupcakes
• Regular Cupcakes with frosting
• Ñ→63♪╕↓O♠○→+|wAAd~£
• Lions
• Spontaneous trips with Anna
• Croquet Taxidermy Cats
• Hanging with Abi EVERY DAY
• Hang gliding
• Sailing 

Anti Fear List Thursday

• Coffee Dates
• Reading Harry Potter to micah
• New hugging sweater
• Rango
• Friends you never get tired of but even after long periods of being in their presence desire to be in their presence
• Yes Dancing
• Bonfires
• Pool Playing
• Music that is just right
• Snowy nights with Abi that are lovely lovely
• Praying and being better

Anti Fear List Thurdsay

1. Well yesterday Abi couldn't go to school, so I spent the day with her, and I hadn't seen her in several weeks, and it was joyous and wonderful.

2. Being rescued by rescued in Illinois by my father

3. Listening to Harry Potter while driving

4. Wind Chimes that have been hand painted for you, and wind chimes in general, but especially these ones I received that were hand painted for me, and the prospect of completing them with Abi.
5. Seals and Pelicans!

6. Writing this list is like a gate to heaven that all the good thoughts can fit through but bad thoughts can't, they just sit by them selves and it's OK cause I don't really need them. 

7. This man I stayed with who was really funny and I enjoyed his company. His name was Adam. 

8. Mountainous Views. 

9. Giant piles of dirt that are displayed in art galleries. 

10. Home is Healing!!!

Travel

This trip is like an eating disorder

Sometimes one realizes, after grabbing a piece of fat on his body and screaming his head off at it, that screaming one's head off at a piece of fat is ineffective. "Don't you understand?! No one likes you here. You always come and ruin the party. I hate myself when I'm with you." 

Even though it is very painful to carry on, it is evident that depriving myself of everything that I love will eventually cause me to reach social, physical, spiritual nirvana. Like when your ribs are prominent and people wonder what's the matter. You just inform them that, in fact, Nothing is the matter. That they just want you to eat so they can maintain their feeling of superiority at the fact that you lack will power, a thing God ships them by the boatload as a job benefit. Well it's not gonna happen! They aren't gonna think it's so funny when your teeth get loose and your hair gets crusty and starts to fall out. It is certain you will have the last laugh. So I will carry on.